The people that got us through

On March 13th we closed the door at the end of the hall. For the past 3 weeks that door has remained closed. I couldn't stand the thought of seeing no name on the wall and all the artwork removed. At the same time it was a door that was closed to our moving forward. So yesterday we decided to open it. D asked if I was ready and I burst into tears. Opening that door meant letting go. Letting go of A. Letting go of my visions of that particular little boy running through our house. Mostly it came down to my acceptance of this journey taking just a little bit longer. D looked at me and said, "That is Pickle's room now." I was ready.

We opened the door. I looked it and it was so empty. The furniture is all still there, but D's mom had taken down all the artwork. The hardware that held the quilt on the wall was even gone. But the one thing that remained was the cross. It was a gift from D's Aunt & Uncle. It has an inscription on it that reads,

"For I know the plans I have for you', declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11

I am glad she left that up. Now we are faced with redecorating that room. Do we put back the same artwork or buy all new stuff. There are a few pieces that I want to put back up. Some of it was D's when he was a baby. I am just not sure I have it in me to complete a whole new quilt though. The last one took me forever!

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On a totally different note we have started yet another web site. This one is actually a real website! Go check it out www.4pickle.com. This is my attempt at another fundraiser actually. Upon opening that door we quickly came to the realization that we need the money to complete this thing. We have done tons of fundraising in the past year. Sure some of you may think that it is not appropriate to do adoption fundraising, but that is your opinion. We simply don't have the near $40,000 sitting around to pay for this. Yeah, our's is costing a little more due to an added third trip.

Anyway, I belong to a fundraising for adoption yahoo group (let me know if you want the address.) One suggestion was to create a simple website and put something on your car that has the website name. I hate stuff stuck to my car. I am very particular about it. But I thought in the interest of getting Pickle home I would give it a try. So I created a very simple window cling to put in my back window. It is simply the website name. We'll see how it works.

So go visit our site. I hope to add more pages that have all kinds of adoption information. This is a precursor to creating the charitable foundation site.