Unexpected Miracles

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Frustration

18 months
78 weeks
547 days
13,128 hours
787,680 minutes.

That is how long we've been at this adoption. Life has come and gone around us and we're still right here. Waiting. We've spent the last year and a half of our lives just waiting. I am tired. Tired of waiting, tired of worrying, and of not knowing the answer to the question of "when?". All I want to do is hold my son again and bring him home. I want to start living and stop waiting to live. My frustration with the process is at an all time high. Please pray that we will get filed to court this week and that our court date follows soon after. Also pray for all the waiting families and children, I'm sure they could use our support too. Thanks for letting me vent.

Written at 4:14 PM by Trusty Husband.

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30 Comments:

Rhyne & Jake said...

Sending up extra prayers for you, D, and Pickle. I hope that soon we will all click here to read those 2 beautiful words - COURT DATE! It's only about time for you guys! Hugs to you and D!!

4:37 PM

Anonymous said...

Elle and D:
Our thoughts and prayers are with both you and Pickle! Hang in there......

4:38 PM

Elle said...

sweetheart, you said exactly what I was thinking today. I don't know how much more I can take.

5:01 PM

Anonymous said...

Our prayers and love continue to flow to you, Russia and Heaven. We so want the waiting to be over for the three of you.
All our love,
L, W and B

6:19 PM

Anonymous said...

We think Heaven must just about be filled from corner to corner with the prayers being lifted for you both and your precious son!! We can only imagine how difficult this has gotten as the minutes tick by, all without even the teeniest guarantee. However, never believe for even one of those minutes that you have been without the love, support and prayers of all those who know you!! And how much love, encouragement & support you have brought to many, many people all over the world who are on a journey similar to yours - what a blessing you are to all of us - you truly reflect the love God rains down on you. OK, all that being said, it's time for this whole damn thing to be over and for you to shout "we're home . . . all THREE of us!!" (Listen up, Lord! Please!) Mom and Dad

7:14 PM

Anonymous said...

What is your agency telling you why the medical clearance letters for some children are being signed while others are rejected? Are the submission failures due to lack of completed paperwork from the client or from the social service department within the babyhouse? What forms are must be located to make this case whole for everyone. What is the expected timeframe for the resolution of this logjam; who controls the processing of the others behind you. Is the holder of the stamp on vacation or sick leave? Is there no one else with the talent to weld the stamp? What would the cost be to have your agency rep facillitate the use of the temporary stamp holder to get these forms completed.

7:29 PM

Maggie said...

Oh the frustration. Get a burro, load him up with ink and stamps and whatever else they might need in Khab, and send him on his way. All hail the burro!

7:33 PM

Rhonda said...

OH girl, I can relate right now. Brian has to drag me out of Bonnie's room because I am trying to live there. I am PRAYING. I mean I am REALLY praying that this ends soon. A person only has so much that they can take, you know? Sometimes I wish that we all lived closer together. How fun would that be? We could all get together and drink margaritas.

Margaret is right. Time for the burro.

8:11 PM

Anonymous said...

Sorry to hear that things didn't change while I was away. Here is a sentence I read while I was gone and it hit home. "Believing isn't the hard part; waiting on God is." My prayers are with you as you wait. "Be still and know that I am God."

See you tomorrow--I'm bringing cookies! IAL

8:12 PM

Anonymous said...

You've been through so much and have been a good sport about it. Its time for your court date!! I found the last part to be the most painful. Wishing you a very speedy court date.
Serena

9:30 PM

A Room to Grow said...

thinking of you and D and hoping you get some court date news really soon. i am looking forward to the day! hang in there!

9:52 PM

Rhonda said...

Sorry D, I just realized you wrote this and not Lisa...you can cross out the "girl" in my comment above. But I'd still love to have magaritas with both of you, so you can leave that part.

10:51 PM

The Belanich's said...

I will continue to pray for that court date. I hope it comes this week... and you travel very soon!
I was just complaining on our site that it was 12 months, etc etc etc. and then came over here and saw yours at 18 months!! GOD bless and know we are here to support you!

Sandy B

5:10 AM

Sig said...

You guys are ALWAYS in my thoughts and prayers. They will continue till pickleis where he belongs...HOME with you.
Hugs and kisses.

5:22 AM

Deb said...

I'm praying nightly for you guys and little Pickle. (as well as the rest of the waiting PAP's)

5:30 AM

Suzanne said...

Your happy-news day will come. It will.

7:12 AM

Kelly said...

Sorry about your waiting. I will be praying for you and your family. I truly hope that things move along for you guys this week.

7:26 AM

Anonymous said...

I hear you! The last time my husband prayed for patience I KICKED him under the table. I really did. Thoughts and prayers are with you and those that hold the stamps, pens, etc. that mean so much to us.

7:54 AM

Anonymous said...

Oh CS..and Elle too

I just want to give you big hugs because I know this is causing you anguish. While we did not have to wait as long, I know how every second can seem like an eternity.

We actually had a similar delay when we were waiting to be filed with Lidia. The Blaylocks (whom we thought would be filed at the same time as us-did first trip 1 week previous to us) were filed and Olga told us that the medical committee had not signed everything yet. So we waited, and concluded it would not be until after the Christmas holidays that we would return (which would easily be another month or more). Well, to our suprise we ended up filed a week or 2 later. Still we counted on a post Christmas court date. Then we got the e-mail on Thanksgiving weekend--that announced our court date was in less than 3 weeks!! Christmas Eve! Miracles happen and I will be thinking of you and your soon to be miracle, whatever form it may take. I know things are different now than when we went, but I just wanted to give you a little hope.

Olga and all her people are working for you and doing everything they can, have no doubts about that.

Though it is hard to see now--this is your path. When you get to the end of it, your heart will know that it had to be this way--it had to be the right time. It is little comfort now, but keep your eyes on the stars--they are the same stars your little Pickle is sleeping under. You are not so far apart.
*big hugs*

7:55 AM

Anonymous said...

I just have to believe that this is God's perfect timing, but it DOES feel hopeless some of the, I mean most of the time. I really want to see your little boy home.

~hugs~

8:59 AM

Mary said...

Thinking of you. God's plan in His time...still tough to wait.

9:43 AM

Anonymous said...

Step back a bit and look at the gifts you already have. You have each other, that is number one. You have a home, financial security that is probably better than 5 or 6 billion people in the world. Although you live in a country that is proabably in decline, you live a quality life. You have friends and family that give you support.

One could take the opposite view and say, Life is hard and then you die but instead live for the potential of the moment.

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
Buddha

9:55 AM

Yeah So said...

Quick, someone shove more vodka and chocolate under the bed!!

10:11 AM

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry this has been so frustrating and loooong- I still don't understand why it moves so quickly for some and drags for others. I really hope that your court date is soon.

11:05 AM

SoFlaMom said...

Quote of the day....

Nothing is predestined: The obstacles of your past can become the gateways that lead to new beginnings.

I think we all can relate to this!

11:59 AM

Lauri said...

My prayers are with you and all waiting parents... I can feel the frustration in your posts- I will save my assvice/divine timing "whats meant to be will be" comments for another time. Please know that you have my support and friendship and I cant wait for the good news of your court date really soon. Im so sorry that your dealing with all this dreaded waiting

Hugs
Lauri

3:32 PM

Jenny said...

Oh boy. 18 months is too long to be waiting. I will, with everything hope that that court date gets set or the papers are filed, whatever it is you need done gets done. I am tired for you. Enough already! ENOUGH!

3:35 PM

Gaye and Andrew said...

Elle & D...we waited 18 months before we finally got news of our referral. Thankfully, our court date was scheduled on our trip to meet him...

Just know that it will happen...Pickle is yours and he will be home with you soon...gaye

7:49 AM

Mrs. Broccoli Guy said...

Oh I know that tired feeling so very well. If only we knew where the end of the road was so we knew how much farther we had to go! Praying for you and for your son to come home to you *soon* (and not that horrid, vague "soon" but the actual, tangible kind of soon!!!)

7:57 PM

Ann said...

Oh I so hope that you are able to get your son soon. We haven't been "waiting" that long, so I can't imagine what it is like. I'm sure that it is very frustrating. I guess for those of us in the adoption world, we have to have faith that it will happen and that our child WILL indeed be in our arms.

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